Tuesday, July 18, 2006
rahh.this is not my first time having a blog and i still have a blog kept private which has been intact for months.but oh well,shall have this new open blog.

i feel my sanity slipping away.my friends and classmates have been commenting that my temperament is weird and getting out of hand.occasionally,i will let out a RAHHHH.and growl.or my demeanour is that of a demented person.sigh.

stress.strangely i do not really feel it,though i keep telling people im stressed,im stressed,im STRESSED!that is just a reminder to force myself into a state of delirium so that i can panic and truly start studying.

and yesterday night me and tf were once again chatting on the phone and i felt the connectivity between us strong as usual.things havent change much for us after almost 2 years.
we were discussing what to do if we fail As.

studies.im beginning to abandon hope,and im clinching on to a semi-state of depression.i keep sleeping my days away and i have no clue what's wrong with my body system.

i shall promise myself to exercise and eat healthily for these 2 weeks.ran on the treadmill,did 100 sit-ups and did around 200 stretchings using the OTO POWER STRETCH just now.shall do it thrice a week.

i realised today that some people just can't be trusted.and some people just irks me and gets on my nerves.piss me off.stop indulging in your fantasies and then impose it on me.im not a thing;im a human.i have feelings.and some people just love to spout their mouth off.i shall be careful in telling people things from now on.

today was a bad day.real bad day.almost felt like crying when walking out of school.so many things pissed me off and made me upset.it's just not my day today.


i don't know if liking you was a mistake.
but if it's a mistake,
you are the best mistake i'll ever make.


PORTUGAL :]
xoxo

THE FAN
`bel
`17,going on 18
`ajc
`a simple & ordinary girl
`loves sports,laughing,instilling lame jokes into people's life,having hearty chats with friends
`values friends,family,genuinity
`hates being accused,being cheated/lied to

GOALS
`to undo the knots in my heart
`score well in As
`learn a new sport after As
`go overseas with friends
`earn big bucks after As
`be a volunteer at SPCA & to give comfort and solace to those in need
`fly to Florida one day and meet him

SCREAM

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